A Website?

We’ve all heard about the worst of times and the best of times. This has been one of those weeks. Only, I haven’t found the best of times yet. Ideally, I’d like to write about a victory—show God at work. But that isn't always true of the day-to-day nitty-gritty. This time, the victory still waits in the wings. I hope.

I’ve mentioned several times that I have a major project. I've been planning and creating a web site. I’ve enjoyed the blogs and plan to keep two—a personal blog and a devotional blog. But I began blogging primarily to write about spiritual armor—felt God was impressing me to do that. The material amounts to information—and I've realized blogs don’t lend themselves well to providing information. They do best with current ideas and reactions. (If interested, you can check out some of my writing on spiritual armor by perusing Red, Red Berries . Click and then scroll down.)

Let me digress a bit. Spiritual armor is a tough subject. There’s not a lot of material available—most references simply state we should put it on. I’ve been nervous approaching something so weighty, and my writing feels stilted at times. Although it’s the very subject I felt God wanted me to write about, it requires courage to begin every time I post.

A friend said, “Maybe this is just for you.” Maybe it is. But I’m not motivated to learn for myself. If I can’t share, why bother? That must be a personal defect, but it’s my reality.

(I eventually found an excellent book by William Gurnall of the seventeeth century—published by Moody—but that’s a digression within a digression, so I’ll resist writing about it.)

Back to the website. I ran into a major glitch after spending major money on material that would supposedly help me create a site on my own. I took this approach because, with my own creation I could make changes without paying the designer. After all, I want a site that could grow and incorporate changes.

Of course, now I’m wondering what I was thinking of. I came to the end of myself sometime Thursday eve, and since then I’ve realized God still understands and loves me. Not only that, Ken still understands and loves me. I can’t justify a colossal mistake because I needed to know I am loved, but it’s been nice.

Today I began thinking this could become a foundation for something else in the future. I’ve learned a great deal, even though a website might not emerge from the ashes. Then I remembered I’m nearly 70.

The dilemma is what to do now. Continue with the blogs? I know I have to finish what I started on spiritual armor. That will take three months at least. Then, if I’m serious about putting together a more viable presentation, I should rewrite. Where will it find a home?

I Thessalonians 5:16-19 reads, Rejoice always, pray constantly, give thanks in all circumstances: for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you. Notice it doesn't say give thanks for but give thanks in. I don't think God is telling me thank him for glitches, but in the middle of the circumstance I'm to rejoice, pray, and give thanks anyway. I've been able to give thanks, and I've even been thankful that I'm able to be thankful. Interesting, isn't it. Haven't quite come to the rejoicing stage yet.

I’ve thought about approaching a young gal who designs and services websites, but don’t want to ask her for information. I might not follow through—and then be charged for a consultation. I’ve thought about trying once again to create my own site. But even Ken is stumped and, truthfully, I suspect a scam. I won’t go into why—too depressing.

Couldn’t face it yesterday or today. I've decided I won't think about it tomorrow. Monday? Maybe. Maybe a victory still waits in the wings.


On another note altogether, Ken was able to get into the layout of this blog and enlarge the title (just under the picture) tonight while I was writing the above. Perhaps that was the best of days this week. I'm pleased with the new design, even though it's also been time-consuming.